I met a guy not long ago and we started as friends, then became friends with benefits. At the beginning of this month I lost my virginity to him. When he found out, he said he felt bad and that it should’ve been more “special,” which kind of confused me.
At first I told myself I didn’t want to get attached, but I did anyway. When we first met, we instantly clicked. The first time we hung out after, we talked on the phone for hours until I fell asleep. The second time, we were just laughing the whole time, even in between everything—it felt really natural and intimate. He was kissing my forehead, holding me, and I fell asleep on him. It didn’t feel just physical to me.
But at the same time, he kept telling me not to think too highly of him and that he’s had bad experiences with exes, so he wasn’t really in a place for anything serious.
The third time we hung out felt more rushed physically, but afterward he was still doing little things like playing with my hair. Then when I got home, his energy completely switched. He barely responded, left me on read, and only replied seriously when I said I was scared I might be pregnant. After that, he said:
“honestly i want to but ik i shouldn’t and i don’t wanna keep living like this sorry”
I told him I understood, but I wished he had been more upfront because I was starting to catch feelings. He apologized, and we stopped talking.
Later, he texted again apologizing for how he treated me. I accepted it and tried to move on, but I ended up missing him and reached out. He responded, we had a short convo, and then he suggested we should “catch up” in person. When I asked when, he said he’s currently out of town but will hit me up when he’s back.
Now I’m confused. Do you think he’s just trying to link up again casually, or could he actually be interested in something more this time?