Today I recived an IG DM of a girl saying she has being going out with my boyfriend for some time, she showed me proof, I confronted him, he admited it. Said that he did it because he loves me, that I'm the best thing he has ever seen, but he is not good enough for me and he never will.
I broke up with him on the spot.
Now I can only think about all of the times he said he didn't had time or money. I think about his wramth, his bear pooking my face when kissing me and the feeling after. I think about him helping me study, helping me recharge my lighter.
All of it was a lie, every time he said he wanted to marry me, have children a house on the country side. I was nothing to him.
I don't know how to move on, how to stop missing him, I just want to hug him and hear him telling me it was all a nightmare and nothing more.
I don't know if anyone will ever love me again. I'm not attractive, I'm fat and autistic, I dont move well in social circles. I'm like Mary Bennet on the Other Bennet Sister, but far less inteligent and interesting. My friends and family say I'm too nice, too loving, they say I'm cute and quick witted, but I know they only say it to confort me.
Sorry for the long rant, do you have any advice?