Just found out last month that my PA partner has been lying to me for 10 years. Now I literally cannot decipher the truth. He had been gaslighting me for so long that I honestly believed him and thought I was going crazy. Now he’s in recovery supposedly, but I keep getting those gut feelings and I feel way more inclined to trust my intuition this time.
Does trust ever happen again? I keep getting to a point where I’ll have a bad feeling he’s acting out again but then I ask him and feel absolutely no relief. Not even remotely. It’s like Every time I ask him for an answer I’m concerned about, I walk away feeling like “well who even knows if that’s true” and then I just feel worse.
I’m in s anon and getting help for myself. I know this will take time. But has anyone ever had trust and honesty ever return after a decade of deceit? Keep wondering if I really want to stay when I’m never going to feel emotionally safe?