My husband left for a month and now I feel like everything is my fault
I’m a 34F and my husband is 36M. We have been together for 6 years and have a baby. A few weeks ago he decided to leave the house for a month to “think” and is staying with his parents. He told me that right now he doesn’t want to be with me and that at the end of the month he’ll decide what he wants. I even asked him if he would choose me or the idea of someone new, and he said right now he would choose something new. We’ve always been brutally honest with each other.
He says his feelings changed because I treated him badly, argued a lot, and there wasn’t much intimacy anymore. I’ll admit I became angry and yelled too much. I was emotionally exhausted and should have handled things better.
From my side, I felt overwhelmed because I carried most of the mental load at home. He would usually come home from work and nap while I cooked and handled things with our child. On weekends I was up early with the baby while he slept in. I started feeling less feminine and more like I had to be “the man of the house,” handling everything emotionally and mentally.
Now I’m stuck between guilt and resentment. Part of me knows I contributed to the relationship problems, but another part feels hurt because I don’t think he recognizes his own role either.
Deep down I know I’ll probably be okay without him, but my self-esteem is so low right now that I genuinely feel like I’ll never find someone better. Has anyone else gone through something similar and come out okay on the other side
TL;DR: My husband left for a month saying his feelings changed because of constant arguments and lack of intimacy. I admit I became angry and emotionally exhausted, but I also felt overwhelmed carrying most of the responsibilities at home and with our child. Now I’m stuck between guilt, resentment, and very low self-esteem while he decides if he wants the marriage or not.