u/Civil_Wall_3361

25 mtf 1 year 7 months. I really dislike being a guy with some disharmonious fat redistribution especially on my face. like, yeah, HRT has been therapeutic mentally, but I also just hate my body differently. I think looking like a hodgepodge thing is gross and has made me unattractive; it makes me nearly regret going on HRT.

I really don't know what to do other than try to detransition, or just cope and take HRT for it's minimal therapeutic help.

I'm 25 (MTF) and I've been on hormones for 1 year and 7 months, and it feels pretty useless ... at least from the results so far. I'm aware it's not a lot of time, but I'm not confident that my body has the potential anyway. My body isn't very masculine but it's not feminine either, and my face isn't too masculine either, but I do believe I'd have to have FFS to pass which I can't access.

Sometimes I think it'd be better to detransition because my transition hasn't really been one. In my opinion, if hormones don't work for you, then "transitioning" isn't quite real in a social sense. I don't want to be "the trans," so, it's like, what am i even doing this for?

I'm basically just a guy that wears a binder to hide small breasts and I feel like even longer on HRT won't do much--yet i don't really want to go off it. It's like either way I'm stuck.

The only difference with my dysphoria: I slightly like my body more; but now I have a more realistic view of transitioning from sobering disappointment -- that internally the "trans community" has intense survivorship bias and selection bias that does give one some wrong ideas about transitioning.

I feel that I'm in the acceptance phase, that I'll probably have to live with the same level of physical and social dysphoria forever because the body I'm dealing with just isn't going to really transition in any real sense.

I do believe I'll probably stay on HRT, but I want to hear from others that have "lukewarm" transitions that have minimal results and how y'all have dealt with it. It's just so meh.

I know that the way I express things is disagreeable from many angles, but my view is that in practical life, the way you'd exist in society, doesn't care about all the angles you could technically be correct from, before anyone gives me the regular spiel.