I hate them so much. I am a teenager and I know I might not be done growing, but I feel so ugly and not feminine, especially when all my friends have boobs and I don’t. They are always talking about how excited they are to go to the pool this summer, but I am dreading that so much because that would mean I would be so exposed. It’s so hard comparing myself to every single classmate and girl I see while I feel so creepy for constantly staring at their boobs.
I basically started puberty at nine years old when I got my growth spurt, lots of body hair, and wide hips. Soon, I got my period the year after, but now at 15, I have seen absolutely no changes since then.
I did have some body image issues around the time of middle school and I was very underweight, but not dangerously, and I have mostly gained it back. I read somewhere that not eating enough delays puberty, so I hope that’s right. Does anyone know if not eating enough will affect my development in the long term too? I haven’t been able to find much on it.
I have tried just about everything the internet has to offer. I ate and drank certain things, I slept without a bra, done massages, exercises, manifesting, and everything else I could to get boobs, but it really didn’t work. Last year, I also tried to gain weight to get boobs, and it kind of worked, but it just made me feel bad about the other parts of my body, and I ended up losing it again over the summer because of a breakup.
My mom has big boobs, and so does her side of the family, so I don’t know what went wrong. I really hope I’m not stuck like this forever because if I am, there is no doubt that I am getting surgery.
I hope that I’m just a late bloomer and they will come soon when they are ready, but does anybody have some stories of late development that might give me some hope? I am truly starting to lose hope because it has been over 5 years of very little breast development and I am so tired of hating my body.
I have also tried to do things like journaling, practicing self care, and positive self talk to try and boost my self esteem, but I feel like I keep coming back to this issue and it genuinely makes me feel like shit. Does anyone have any tips on how to love and accept yourself more? I can’t keep living this insecure because I actually hate everything about myself.
This has just been a problem all of my life and I constantly feel worthless, ugly, and completely unloveable, which I don’t know if that’s just a teenager thing or a real problem. Sometimes I feel like the only person in the whole world that is this insecure and I just wish I was more like my friends and not so like pre teen. If anyone has any advice on how to 1) speed up breast development 2) accept yourself or 3) any stories that might give me some hope, i would feel so grateful. Thank you ❤️