Hey all. I’m turning 30 this year and I hate my life. I have been working the same part-time library clerk job since I graduated film school in 2019. Initially it was a side gig while I tried to do freelance editing work, but I quickly discovered that I didn’t have the proper hardware or training or connections or passion to pursue video editing/videography professionally. The library’s a job that involves long spans of doing nothing punctuated by encounters with baby boomers who get very frustrated when you don’t remember their passwords for them, or when you don’t want to listen to them recall a dream they had about their nephew. I also got a second PT library job where I work with teenagers, which is much the same. I hate it.
But what else can I even do? I have re-written this post a few times to avoid “calamitous verbiage” so suffice it to say I live with my parents but cannot count on them for support beyond that. My home life mirrors my work life almost exactly. My entire 20’s have been spent bending over backwards for ungrateful and emotionally immature people, and I want it to end. I would gladly work an office 9-5 if it was full time and payed a decent amount. I apply to these jobs regularly, but my resumé is mostly that of a professional babysitter, so I rarely hear back from them. I don’t even have the first clue as to how to get out of this.