So Mother's Day yesterday didn't go at all like I expected..
My husband slept in, we went to bed at the same time and I gave him time to wake up on his own but ended up having to wake him up around 11:17am. He came upstairs gave our boys a Krispy Kreme donut then sat on the couch and started watching videos on his phone.
I gave him some time to see if he would stop but didn't so I asked if that's what he was going to be doing for the morning. He responded yes until he leaves with 2 out of 3 of our boys to go to the store. I said I thought he wouldn't be doing what he normally does on this Day so he stopped playing videos then continued being on his phone. (Which to me is the same thing)
Once again feeling isolated. I felt if I didn't say something else this would be until he left the house and then when he got back.
So I said I thought the day wouldn't start out like an average off day. He didn't think it was a big deal to be on his phone unengaged with me and the kids.
So I feel like he was being petty when he sat his phone down then laid on the couch and closed his eyes.
Then what felt like an argument that I started crying because he said he can't give me what I am wanting which is being present which he means in general he can't be present.
Like it's Mother's Day, I didn't want to feel lonely on Mother's Day.
I was so hurt by other things he said I finally said I can't be your alarm clock and that's why for the last almost 7 months I stopped waking you up on your off days because when I did you would just go back to sleep for another hour or 2.
Of course that backfired because now I sound like the bad guy. 😔