u/Churchmichael_Aemer

So ive been reading here for a bit and finally decided to post. growing up everything felt like walking on eggshells around my mom. even normal conversations had this weird tension like one wrong word would flip everything. she could be laughing one second and cold the next over something tiny. i learned to stay quiet a lot just to keep things stable. now as an adult i still catch myself over explaining everything. my partner says i apologize too much even for basic stuff. i didnt even realize how much of that came from home until recently. sometimes i feel dumb for still reacting like that even though im out of that environment. other times i just feel tired of always monitoring myself. does this ever get easier to unlearn or is it just something you slowly retrain over time