I started experiencing SSA when I was 12/13. Im 35m and I have had a huge battle with shame regarding my sexuality. Before SSA came into my life I was super outgoing, happy, ton of friends , A/B student but when I started having feelings for other guys I become very reserved, depressed and my grades tanked. I was filled with so much shame and self hatred because I truly didn’t want to be gay/bi. I remember laying in bed one night and telling God “Either take this away from me or make it so I don’t wake up“. Even after truly starting to follow Christ 12 years ago and marrying a woman, the SSA hasn't gone away. To this day I still fight that same shame and self-hatred.
Has anyone found a way to eliminate the any shame they have experienced regarding SSA?