how do i deal that I didn’t matter in a relationship?
I’m really struggling with myself right now and these thoughts don’t even really appear at all anymore. It’s been a year and 4 months since my breakup but it was the aftermath that killed me. I was so devastated just seeing her move on so fast and I was so focused on getting better that I started getting technical with my dopamine lol. It took me a long time to get over what happened. Here I am though a year and 4 months later, and I didn’t realize it till a couple months ago that I was just so devastated because I didn’t matter. That realization sometimes just attacks my brain or something. I just get so upset and I know i’ve been making it so much harder for myself. So what if she started sleeping with guys a few weeks after our relationship and just moved on like nothing yk? Like during that time I was just in her thought process. Why am I struggling with this so much. Why did I just not matter. Idk why Im so frustrated and upset about it even after so long. I don’t think about her at all often, but when I do (esp after the realization) I just get so stuck on it.