I have this issue where the feeling of utter emptiness washes over me. Nothing fills me up, not food, not music, not tv shows or movies, nothing. I don’t want to do anything and every little action or movement or even existing feels exhausting and dreadful. Music is just empty noise, any media is boring and dull, every food is bland and I don’t want to do anything. I don’t feel anything except some utter despair.
It breeds intense dysphoria where every little thing is wrong and I’m so restless as if I’m on the edge.
I‘m so exhausted that I can’t even make myself take care of myself and my surroundings. Sure, I shower daily and do everything related to hygiene but it’s sososo tough to make myself do it. I was nearly hit by a car today because I’m so shut down, that’s how bad it is.
I’m medicated and so far I don’t see improvement except in my sleep. I take lithium, cariprazine and escitalopram which are supposed to target my lack of motivation but I can’t seem to escape this limbo.
Any self care hacks will help atp.