Three years in and I still spend more mental energy correcting myths than managing my actual blood sugar. "Can you eat that?" "My uncle cured his with cinnamon." "But you don't look diabetic." The disease is manageable. The constant low-grade education campaign is exhausting. Anyone else feel like a full-time diabetes ambassador they never applied to be?
Not saying replace doctors. Just saying that having something that would patiently answer my 47 follow up questions at 2am without sighing changed how I understood my own health. The bar for human medical communication is apparently very low.
Three years ago I hit a wall. Not a dramatic breakdown, just a slow disappearing of myself. The thing that started turning it around wasn't therapy or a morning routine. I stopped consuming content for entertainment entirely. No scrolling, no autoplay, nothing. The first week felt like withdrawal. The second week I started hearing my own thoughts again. I'm writing this because someone out there is in that fog and doesn't know why. Your brain didn't break. It's just full.
What make you better then 99% of people? or what the thing that stops you in your place?
Is really there is a thing that named success? What is it? And who determined it to you? And is it necessary for you? Is there is one success or specific success in each field?
What do that word mean to you?
I overcame depression three years ago, and it takes from a critical changes, one of the most important change of these is stop listening to music. Yes, it's look weird and impossible but it's one of the important thinks that take me out from depression and it can help you to avoid it or be one of the factors that will get you out of it.
I was scrolling 3 to 8h a day, hearing hundreds of songs every hour, and the rest of the day I put the earphones in my head even in bed. After it was just a hobby she start to be the base when there is no music in my ears I start feeling empty, distracted like a zombie I cant think because of the hundreds of the songs that start turning in my head like a storm, I start being like a slave of this dos of dopamine. And it's one of the biggest reasons of my depression.
Scientifically that possible for every one. And the big surprise is that scientist found that the dopamine of the music is equal to the dopamine of "cocaine or amphetamine". Yes it's wright and that while some self help gurus promote music as a sours of power, while it's a digital drug and it was about to destroy my live. Like any drug, it not kill you in the first day, but it compound by time.
When dopamine receptors get used to an amount of that drug it start to be your new base line and when you stop, the depression start, and to enjoy you have to get more, and for me it start compounding until it arrived to 12h of music a day in the total including the music in scrolling. And that was my limit either I will be destroyed or save my self.
I was able to stop soo hardly, until the result start appear. I was able to feel again, and take control of my self, and that was the second change that help me from depression. I did every think I could to write this post better then the first. I hope that help you all!! Thanks for your valuable time ;)