TW for s*cide later in the post.
Hello. I'm 22 and I have been questioning if I'm a singlet or a system. Feeling a bit lost if my symptoms are some sort of identity dissociation disorder or if it's just linked to other of my diagnoses (Autism, OCD, DPDR).
I sometimes feel very conflicting thoughts in my head. I tend to have short conversations with myself too (as if there was an assembly of mini-me's lol). I can characterize some of them, and sometimes I feel like they try to "take control", but since I have OCD I look at them as being intrusive thoughts and ignore them.
Last year I got a name for one of these "voices". I'll keep it to myself at the moment. But that made me ponder on what could be happening to me.
TW for the next section: s*ide attempt
Once or twice (or maybe more times) I've had moments where I know fully well I don't want to die, but something in my body makes me move; even if I don't want to. Then I "come to" and realize I'm in danger, then stop.
End of TW
It's as if I was living through fog or something similar. I've had like, 6 month stretches where I feel 'normal' too, which makes me question everything...
I intend to talk to my therapist next Monday. Thank you!