Throughout my life there have been many times when I realised maybe there is something wrong with me. I can’t put my finger on it but it takes me longer to understand and get good at the things other people can, I forget things easily I have bad focus and lock myself into a completely avoidable situation that would end badly for me.
People in university call me smart but in general I am very clumsy at doing basic things and people say I don’t have common sense. I am never interested in the course work. I often have completely different questions when looking at the same things as other people I never feel like I fit in no matter what I do.
I do have friends and they have called me out like a few times for acting like a dumbass. Now I know all this is true, I am a dumbass but its honestly kinda embarrassing how weird I act. Asked a guy once why he came to the university we were in like 4 times in the same semester forgetting every time I asked him. I just do not know what’s wrong with me, and for some reason all things I have said above it doesn’t apply to the things I like and am passionate about.
Is there a way I can at least minimise how much it shows I am a dumbass to others? If it helps with answering I am 21 M.
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Some situations where I have fucked up for example:
Weird social interactions with people for some reason sometimes I am stiff as a brick talking to people while other times I am completely normal and can communicate properly
Talk too fast and the next person never understands what I say and then I have to repeat myself multiple times until they tell me to slow down and speak and then the conversation continues (this happens often)
I start boring the person I am talking to mid conversation if by mistake something I like is mentioned I wont shut the fuck up about it until the person I am talking to makes it clear to me I wont shut the fuck up.
Generally just very clumsy with equipment and anything practical
Can’t find things even if my life depended on it and I lose things very easily which inconveniences everyone around me as well as me