u/Chewsgoodfood

Currently working to process a SA memory and feel so stuck. It feels impossible to move on from it. I am realizing that maybe part of the difficulty is that when my therapist asks me to “bring up the memory” I am imagining it from a third person point of view because I was blindfolded during the event. I’m worried maybe this is causing more dissociation? Anyone else had similar experience? It’s very difficult for me to focus if I don’t have an image to think about, but I also just feel like maybe I’m getting more false memories…ex I reported to everyone after the event that I was blindfolded, but then in the court case the perpetrator said he never did that (also said he of course never did anything). It’s hard for me to not question my own reality now especially after trying to imagine what it would have been like to see what was going on…just feel even more unsafe now that my brain is making up what I believe are false memories? Any help appreciated :(