I’m so scared of being homeless, I’m on disability because of my depression, anxiety and probability ADHD.
I never held myself to any unrealistic expectations since high school. I remember being in 1st grade, already knowing I’m different in a way that’s not cute.
In high school I just wanted to get a decent job and hopefully make extra money from my art. I somehow got into college for graphic design. I dropped out half way through, not seeing the point because I could learn all that on my own.
I was able to hold a part time job during that time, too. I went to full time soon after I dropped out, trying to save money and grain a following for my art. I held that job for almost 5 years, that was my first job as well. Suddenly, I just couldn’t do it anymore…. I started to get confused on seeming simple things, I got headaches a lot, my restless legs were already there but it felt worse. I was forgetting things, like I would be stocking shelves. A customer would ask where something is, when I took them to it and I would forget that I was stocking shelves and start something else. I have issues falling asleep, my speech is also a slight problem. I would lose energy more quickly.
I would need to make a whole script in my head when talking on the phone or to other people. Just things like that kept building up, and suddenly I lost my first job and couldn’t hold a job for long. I live with my parents so it wasn’t that big of an issue to me. I thought I felt that way because I wanted to do my art full time, no, my doctor told what I had.
A mental doctor told me my depression and anxiety was on the worst side. For a time, I still tried to hold a job. That all I needed was space and the right medicine. No. My last boss told me to apply for disability, it made me realize with some bitterness that I can’t work like a normal person. I can’t function like a normal person.
Now I’m on disability, on a set income.
I’m so scared that once my parents are gone, I’ll be homeless and alone.
Section 8 may take years, I did look into a little from my understanding I would be put a bit higher on the list due to being on disability. That sounds like problem solved, right? Get into section 8 house while my parents are alive. I would need to burn the place down to be evicted, I should be set.
The money problem immediately comes into mind soon after… how in the hell am I supposed to pay all bills, keep up with having a car, have food and basic necessities for me and my two cats on a disability check??? People with jobs are struggling!
So, I’m just asking if am I my own problem or if I’m just completely screwed?