u/Cherryindeedscary

Hello! I’m not sure if this sub is only for people who are professional, or if my post isn’t allowed here, but I started my first design and I wanted opinions on how I can improve

This is just for a high-school project (18, about to graduate and peruse LA) but I’m trying to treat it as real as possible… We were given total freedom. The measurement on here is 1 inch = 10 feet.

This is in Omaha, Nebraska. On the right I have a dry creek pond in place of a real one with some streams branching from the water spout. The idea is that it will fill with runoff water and pool at the bottom, drawing in to the soil below. (Where I added my pretty trees that like more water.)

I just feel like there’s something off, or that it’s too crowded. Besides the empty circles that are just placement ideas, what needs fixing

Ps: I’m not asking for designs, just what I should change

18yo F // I’m mostly seeking advice from people who have fully cut ties with their abuser, but anybody is allowed to pitch in. Skip to the 💭 for my actual question if this is too long ^w^

On the surface, I have a very healthy looking relationship with my father. Throughout my entire life people have told me how badly they wish their parent was like mine ... It’s always made me feel invalidated, like somehow my abuse was imagined. (I’ve written my experience on here before, so feel free to look at that for context.)

If he weren’t my father, I would probably hate him. He goes against almost everything that I stand for, and it makes me feel sick.

My brain excuses his actions with ‘he’s a good person underneath all of it’, but I know that’s not true. Even though he’s never touched anyone, he’s a pedophile. He has wanted children sexually in the past and possibly even now.

That alone should be enough for me to want no contact, but it’s not. I’m still scared that if I stop talking to him he might harm himself—or I might harm myself.

I haven’t lived with him for about two full years now, and I’ve had that amount of time to accept what happened and even forgive him a little. I will always love my father because that’s just how my brain is wired, but I don’t think I ever want to see his face again. Every time I look at him, I see a sick man who used to be the only thing in my world.

💭 How did you actually begin the no contact process? Have you ever broken it? And most importantly, do you regret it???

I don’t think that I’ll ever be able to just ghost him. He is still very possessive over me, and he will contact every other member of my family until I respond back to him (I have tried this method before)

I could tell him straight up that we’re done, but that feels a bit cruel… I’m worried I’ll regret this decision later in my life when he passes away, but he affects my mental state so badly that I just want him out of my life entirely.

My mother doesn’t know the full extent of my situation and she thinks that it’s a bad idea. He’s my father, and I’ll never be able to just ‘stop talking to him.’

I don’t know what’s best for me. Any advice?

Tips on how to improve ?