Ready to leave for years.
I genuinely feel like a caged animal with a window view of the outside world, I have done everything you should do in this situation, I got the GED due to improper schooling, I have my drivers license, I have all my paperwork and documentation, I have my things packed in a spare closet, & I have the discipline. All gotten through blood, sweat, and countless tears, scraping together a decades worth of childhood allowance that was less than a grand total, or debt to my mother (over 7k+) just for me to get one seasonal job (that has gotten me through this far), however I’m now running low on the money i’ve made from that job as I relentlessly search for a full time It’s just one more road block, one!! If I can just get a job even in retail it would change my life.
I just can’t keep living like this. I live with the same person who I was homeschooled by, cramped up in a cot in a corner near the front door of her apartment, constantly being berated, talked down to, threatened, plus all the other shit that happened when I was a kid, it’s psychological torture, And it’s try being able to take walks (shamefully still with permission at 20 years old, I can’t risk losing everything) and having a chill sibling is the only thing keeping me sane.