u/Chemical_Shirt9249

i’m wondering how bad being a shift really is. my shifts are super duper sweet, most of them rarely complain about the “ipad kid stuff” (which i know means milk counts, inventory, etc.) but my store manager asked me if i wanted to be a barista trainer. i hesitated, but said yes. i haven’t been at starbucks long enough yet, though (2-3 more months, give or take). how should i feel about this? i really really love all of my coworkers, they’re really all sweet. i’m the type of person to underestimate myself to prepare for/protect myself for underachievement or something to go wrong. from what i’ve heard, my store manager really loves me and the initiative i take, the drive i have, and how i make people laugh and smile. i know i do those things and i love that she notices but it’s never really been difficult for me to do any of it, LOL. all of my shifts constantly mention how wonderful i am and always mention me in the shift meetings.

i don’t know if ill be any good at it, but i’m willing to try 😭

i have hyper sexuality, and have tried medicines for it. i don’t like using them. it’s gotten more controllable here lately without meds.

my boyfriend and i call usually every night, just a regular call and the occasional ft. it works for us. before we called last night, i brought up an issue that i had with our relationship regarding sex. we obviously don’t have actual sex, but we mutually masturbate. i have a higher sex drive than he does. i just didn’t think he minded. he claims he doesn’t, that nothing has to change but i don’t believe that, otherwise he wouldn’t have brought it up.

anyway—back on topic.

he’s a femboy. i am okay with that. the way he talks during sex…indicates to me that i’m not what he wants. he talks about riding me and the like, which i am afab (assigned female at birth) so i don’t have what he so very obviously wants. i was fine with this until nothing changed when i did bring it up—when i brought this up the first time, he just reassured me and calmed me down, but nothing changed. i just went with it because we call so late at night (his parents know nothing about me), so i’m tired and fried from work.

the second time, which was last night, he suddenly dropped that sex doesn’t appeal to him. it’s not like i’m super upset, but all this time and you didn’t tell me? what do i even do? we had a conversation about it, and i decided i’d just never let him know when i was doing anything surrounding sex, and that if he suddenly wanted to, we could, that id always be open to it. i don’t know what to do. he’s a great guy, we have fun over call just yapping until we both fall asleep, or when things are rough he talks to me about it or vice versa. he’s going into the air force soon too, so that’s gonna suck.

let me know what i should do.