u/Chemical_Activity_80

I have been having anxiety all of my life and it stopped me from getting a job on my own and I have to have a job coach and I have been having a job coach for 31 years because I have problems with my job performance and I am worried about getting fired. Besides I am very shy and have bad social anxiety.

And I am worried about losing my purse with my phone and cards and I keep checking if I lose my cards because I lost my card and state ID in the past and it was very hard for me to get them . And I take meds for my anxiety.

And I am always afraid of someone yelling at me and when someone yells at me I shut down and it makes my anxiety worse. People always yell at me for making mistakes and doing things at the last minute. I am afraid of everything and I am afraid of being homeless. When I get a chance I will talk to my doctor about this .

I don't have a spouse never did and the friend I had threw me away like trash when I was little. My family treats me horrible Everyone talks to me for a while then they stop talking to me and get irritated with me and treat me horrible. I loved my family I have done everything for my mom when she was alive and my siblings and they treat me horrible.

When my family spends time with their family they don't have time for me and push me away and when they don't have nobody they come back to me . If I get married and have kids I will never give up on my siblings like they gave up on me . And I don't talk to my cousin and aunt and uncles on my mom and dad side anymore they don't reach out to me and I don't reach out to them .

I had friends on reddit and they stopped talking to me out of the blue and deleted their account. People who I thought were my friends are not my friends They hurt my feelings.

It seems like everyone has someone and I don't have nobody. I never asked to be born or to live with anyone it's all good.