u/Chemical-Apple453

Me and my bf have been together for 1 years n 5 months. We definitely moved way too fast he moved in with me like 2 months into our relationship, at the start of our relationship we were on n off a lot, I will say we have grown a lot but recently-ish I've started treating him a lot worse and I hate myself for it I want to stop bcs I do love him but I can't he makes me so mad. We get into fights everyday not always big fights and I feel like I've just been waiting for things to get better but they haven't the only time I treat him really good is like when I'm on my period and I dont understand why. When we fight I just want to tell him I don't think I'm happy but I just can't. I'm so happy when he leaves like in I think march he went out of town for a little over a week and I was happy I didn't miss him, we were otp for a good amount of it tho but when we were otp I was just so annoyed that even while he was gone I couldn't really have time to myself, and I've talked to him about giving me space but since he doesn't have anywhere to go that didn't work out. I'm just so stuck. Whenever I remember when I was single ofc I was sad but I had my best friend with me all the time, we were friends for maybe 2 n a half years and I gave that up over a guy I've always regretted that. I feel like I just want to be single again but every time I think about being single I think of how much I love him and I dont know what I really want.