160lb 5’7f trains MMA 5days/week. Goal is strength building, injury reduction and athleticism not really body building. Coach told me no more than 3x/wk right now but didn’t want to bother him w the specs of routine. Thanks
I’m not very sexual, low libido. Not a freaky person either. My girlfriend is more so. I am also a girl btw, we have been together 4 years mid 20s. I have this crazy fantasy of her making out with my ex… maybe even the three of us doing it. And not just any other girl, has to be the ex or someone like I am attracted to like her. I don’t have any feelings for that ex, it isn’t like that. It’s just that she’s one of the few people I perceive as attractive that I know, so she’s the other girl in the fantasy. My ex would do it too. I think it would be stupid hot. Am I dumb for that? Should I tell my gf? Sorry I feel weird even posting this I’m awkward about this type of thing
I’m not ugly now but I used to be hot and my exes are beautiful. Like I was competing with rappers beautiful. I’ve gained 50 pounds which is actually probably where I need to be for my height but I feel disgusting and anorexic skinny is in again. I’m also in a longterm relationship with someone very beautiful who I love but I’m fucked up in my brain so every time I post I think what will this girl I dated for two months four years ago think if she sees it and sees how different I look now?? She does view all my shit. She’s gorgeous and one time we were kissing and she pulled away and was like “you are so attractive” and I never forgot it and it meant a lot to me. I was an ugly kid and everyone treated me like shit so when I got hot after puberty everything changed around me I learned to hinge my worth on that and my worst fear is that ex or a different one or people I knew saying “wow look how disgusting OP is now” “OP got fat” and I want to lose weight and I’m trying but I just can’t get myself to remained disciplined. Fuck it all I hate it why did I have to let myself go and why do I have to be so insecure??? Why isn’t it enough for my girlfriend to tell me I look good
I’m sorry. If I could force the feeling I would. You’re perfect. If I don’t cut the string now, then when it runs out there will be no love left. I thought about trying to grin and bear it. You know I would for the rest of my life, but I know you would hate me for it and I could never fool you. The thought of this house half empty sends shivers up my spine. But it excites me just a little bit, too. I love you. I’m sorry.