u/Cheap_Pin6002

Hello I am 30 yrs old female 9 months pregnant.i am working about 200 km away from my home staying with my husband we both are doctors and studying for AMC exam my parents both doctors want me to help financially with renovations of home actually our home doesn’t need any renovations and i feel like they are doing that for fun they want me to spend money on remodeling bathroom removing the old tub and installing a new one i dont have such money in the moment with exams and my pregnancy i have to save money so far they haven’t supported me anyhow even my wedding i wore 6000 saree they are that cheap when it comes to spending on me i dont go home because i hate how they treat me they make me guilty saying i am greedy not spending on them not even asking how i am doing i feel like i cant go through this pregnancy with that much pressure i am sure they wont help me my mother never even bothered to love me i suffered from anorexia nervosa for 6 yrs when she came to know about that only thing she did was shout at me and took me to one session of counseling who they knew and that doctor exact same words were ‘ mata welwa na kyna ekk kynna’ now i feel like killing myself and haven’t talk to my husband i am so tired of my life if there is a god why is he not doing anything i feel like like god wants me to kill myself so if not why is he making my life this much worse