I won’t find another you and quite frankly, I don’t want to.
I wasn’t here just because you were leaving, I would’ve done it anyway.
I just said it so you’d think I wasn’t in too deep. I don’t know why I ever cared about that. It was just a mask, I hope you saw through it.
Well, it’s settled
I’ll be falling in love with someone else now
someone I’ve looked past for too long
I’ll pour into her until the whole place floods
good luck trying to reach me now
I’m all hers.
Locked in. Forever and always.
Edit: this is a self love post. I’m her. No worries.
I just wanted to tell you it’s ok
I understand and we don’t have to talk about it
I’ll miss you a little bit and I hope you get everything you’ve ever wanted
goodbye :,)
I was gonna say I hate you but really I think I blame myself. I let you treat me how you want and wonder why I’m unhappy. I choose to accept crumbs instead of myself. I create fantasies in my head to feel better. It’s not enough anymore and It hurts all the same anyway. I feel embarrassed for caring and that’s where I need to draw the line.
Your loss, not mine. It is what it is. Really wish some of this agony would let up.
-my aching fucking soul