21F and 21M. we’ve been together for two years, both in college. he grew up with amazing supportive parents and was a college athlete and has a sister. i have ton of siblings, half, multiple marriages, alcholhic dad and bipolar mom who left. i am a first gen student who has a 4.0 and good expirence and has worked multiple jobs since 14.
when we started dating it just kind of happened i thought why not? now its been two years, i have had doubts and even tried to break up twice after seeing him watching c0rn which i said was a deal breaker for me… but he loves me SO much, suprise visits, flowers, gifts, affection, nice to friends, family, anything he is doing it. i love him too, and i have been the BEST version of myself with him, i have stopped drinking as much, made really big career and academic moves, gained healthy weight, quit vaping, ect.
but since the beginning of our relationship i’ve been just a little unsure. he used to be an athelete (D1) but got cut due to funding, he got depressed and always has kind of been not great at school, he’s graduating late and doesn’t have a great plan for after college. he had lied on multiple occasions esp about c0r n, and just little white lies which hurt the most (not cheating just silly stupid lies) i also tend to over react so maybe thats why
i also have always dated really academic hard working similar backgrounds too me but those always ended up being passionate but volatile. but with him it’s simple and easy but it’s hard to connect bc he has ZERO experience with anything i’ve gone through and do currently. he tried to understand. i can’t tell if im always back and forth bc we aren’t a good fit and i need to cut my looses or its my OCD or my trauma from my parents getting divorced three times LOL. i really have been wrestling for so long and just want a PLAN on how to be sure bc i know when you know u know… but what if u
involve trauma and ocd is that still true??