In my life I never thought that I would have to go to therapist but I have scheduled for next week.
I came home from Shimla to my house in Amravati, neighbour rushed to me saying her grandma isn't responding as I was unpacking the car, till the time I examind the grandma she had very faint heartbeat and wasn't breathing, I did CPR for 20-30 minutes, ambulance ETA was 1 h 30 min from max hospital.
Now here is the bad part, the best approach here was to take her to hospital myself, I requested Panchkula Toll plaza to give us emergency exit, was refused. Wasted 5 minutes on Toll.
Asked 2 police pigs/dog to help us escort first at Panchkula mod, was refused and got the response that there isn't much traffic. THERE WAS.
Tried agin in Chnadigarh, same response.
Waated more time in traffic, people were more aware that I was continuously honking so they gave me way.
Reached under 40 min., Grandma was consious now in car and was vomiting.
After few hours at hospital ICU, she was declared dead. My neighbor refused to tell me but her brother told me that the doctor said that if we were able to get her here before vomit, they could have prevented it.
I'm just in shock that, I could have drive faster; did something that could have saved her.
This is more like a rant. Which is keeping me up at night. I don't think I can live in this country anymore, if I had generational wealth I would have left this country.
One more reason to earn well and live from this hellhole.