u/Ch0nky_Mama

What’s wrong with me?

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I’ve been feeling great and very positive, but this past week I can’t stop crying and having dark thoughts. I’m 3 months pp, and I’ve been fine!
I see these posts on Reddit about child loss and women who lose their pregnancies and it’s like I’m actively looking for these stories for some kind of validation? But at the same time it scares the fear of God into me that something might happen to my daughter.
I am constantly anxious about my daughter’s safety and health. She was an IVF baby and low chances of success but here she is!! And so loved and wanted and adored and precious. I would die if anything happened to her.

This anxiety is fucking me up. I can’t really talk to my husband about it, he doesn’t get it. And my family don’t live in the same country as I do. I am pretty isolated, like most moms.
Is this PPD?? I’m already on SSRIs so this shouldn’t be happening

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u/Ch0nky_Mama — 15 hours ago

Hi all
I’m almost 3 months PP and feeling good! I want to start having sex again with my husband but my mind and body are so out of disjoint.
Mentally I’m like “hell yeah daddy”
Physically I’m like the Sahara desert

Huge bummer!

Does anyone have tips? Or advice on a good non-toxic eco lube? I hate lube and the silicone makes me itch. I tried organic olive oil but that kinda stings

Help mama get laid again 🙏

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u/Ch0nky_Mama — 13 days ago