u/Ch0ng0B0ng0

I’m 57 days clean after 10 years of consistent use. I expected to be over the hump by now, but I’m still hitting a wall and it isn't letting up.
I’ve been having these midnight terrors where I wake up in a state of total dread like heart racing, super disoriented, and for a few seconds I don't even know where I am. I’m also still getting "brain pops" as I’m trying to drift off to sleep. They sound like crashing things, like a door slamming or something heavy dropping right in my ear. It jolts me awake every time.
I feel like I’ve lost my edge. My wit just isn't there and I’m struggling to feel sharp or like myself. Is it normal for this stuff to still be happening at the two month mark, or should I be worried that it’s something else? Just trying to see if anyone else has dealt with this.