18 and just got diagnosed, I’m scared
I’m freshly 18 and contracted herpes from my first ever sexual experience, one night stand so I don’t even know if he knew he had it but now I don’t know what to do I’m so mad and it feels so unfair, we wore protection so I thought everything was ok and it’s only now, a month later that anything happened. Technically I’m not officially diagnosed until the swab comes back but my doctor seemed pretty sure and it definitely looks and feels like everyone says.
I’m just scared of how much this will affect my life, I keep seeing posts of people saying it gets better but I don’t know how to believe it.I’m scared my friends and family will treat me differently if they ever find out and I haven’t even had an actual boyfriend or girlfriend yet, how am I supposed to go out there into the dating world with this and no experience? Also it hurts like a bitch
I don’t even know what answers I’m hoping for if anyone replies but it does feel nice knowing there’s other people who understand even though I don’t think I’ve fully processed it and my brain keeps saying it’s going to magically turn out to be something completely curable that just seems like herpes in every way possible.
Thanks for reading my ramblings if you have, any advice you wish you knew when you first got it would be greatly appreciated and anyway to stop feeling like shit would love to know