Am I really depressed or is it just weed?
Hi this is my first time posting a Reddit thingy comment but it’s gotten to the point where I’m to afraid to express my thoughts to anyone in real life I’m a 19 year old young woman I guess and have been smoking weed daily since I was 15, I only ever started to get me off cocaine but now my life feels like I’m just waiting to get home and smoke because for some reason I’ve convinced myself that’s where I am happiest when it’s not, I don’t talk as much as I use to, I try to smoke only when I’m not gonna be around anyone for the rest of the day, I feel like I don’t find things funny anymore but sometimes I think that’s just because the people around me aren’t funny, I constantly feel like I’m just waiting for something to happen for something to make me happy I try to get into relationships as that’s what every girl my age seems to do to distract themselves from their reality but I end up just breaking up with them after a short amount of time of us dating, I’ve wanted to quit marijuana for years but I always get reminded why I started, I am so embarrassing sober and I feel like I become very un aware and end up just doing other harder substances, but I feel it’s just making me miserable and unmotivated I’m so comfortable where I am but I use to never be like that I really don’t know what to do, I thought maybe therapy but my family for some reason has always been very against specifically me going and I have no clue where I’d even start getting help