I had a MA almost 2 months ago, at only about 5 weeks gestation, it was the first time I’ve ever been pregnant and it felt horrible, like an alien was inside me and was draining all my energy. The day I took the pills was pretty traumatic, I was in the worst pain of my life, throwing up, sweating and freezing cold at the same time, and almost passed out at one point. My boyfriend was with me and incredibly supportive through the whole process and it weirdly brought us even closer to go through that together. Neither of us want biological kids, I’m horrified of being pregnant for nine months if I could barely even handle 1. I also just don’t want to bring another life into this already overcrowded and evil world. I have absolutely zero regrets, I’m not sad, I feel no guilt or shame. The physical pain was worth it to not be pregnant anymore.
I was worried my sex drive would change after, but it returned pretty much as soon as I stopped bleeding a few days later. However, I’ve realized that since then it’s a lot more difficult for me to orgasm, both when I’m alone and with my boyfriend. Now, stuff that used to be a sure thing to get me there will get me very close, but then all of a sudden it feels like I’m overheating to the extreme, I get super sweaty and uncomfortable to the point that I have to stop. Then I get a rush of emotion that I can’t put adequate words to, but it’s a mix of frustration, sadness, and not exactly insecurity but a neediness? My boyfriend of course notices, stops, points the fan at me, lays with me, talks with me. It’s like I mentally want to have sex and I’m so attracted to him and I love to feel desired, but my vagina is just like girl I’m tired can we not.
I guess I’m here to see if anyone else has experienced this after MA and if it gets better? I have been able to get there, the overheating doesn’t happen every time, but it never happened before and it’s been several times since. I feel like that must be something hormonal like hot flashes during menopause are.