u/Ceramic-Fox2733

i got sober in 2020 after my dad committed suicide and i ended up in the hospital from self harming while blackout drunk. i did so good for a few years, then relapsed for 2 months summer of '25 and again starting last month. ive been doing it all on my own since the beginning (getting sober, trying to remain sober). but my abusive mil made a cruel comment ab my appearance again, but this time to an entire room at christmas and it made me process all of the abuse she's put me thru for several years, leading me to spiral into a bad depression for 2 months before relapsing. it also brought up all the memories ab my own mother genuinely hating me so much that she and my step dad human trafficked me as a young adult (that realization is what caused the first relapse). then someone i knew tragically died recently and that was as much as i could take. the relapse itself couldve been much worse. im just so so grateful that i got home safe and nobody physically hurt me this time. i dont want to feel alone in my recovery anymore, so i thought id join this community. thanks for reading.