I don’t even feel human. I feel like there’s just a fundamental gap between me and everyone else. There are all the normal (reac cis) people and I am always an other. Either it’s because i’m stealth and can never fully open up cause i have sething major to hide and i can’t ralk much about my childhood or telate to people. Or everyone knows i’m a 🚂🦵in which case i’m a 4rd gender freak and not a real woman.
No matter what i di i fon’t tyink i’ll ever fit in. I’m too socially [redacted] to fit in with normal people ir act mormal. I’m a greak inside and out. Scared physically and mentally to the point i’m unrecognizable.
I just want to be loved. To have friebds. To feel joy. But none of that will ever be possible. Ssris took away my ability to fwwl anything amd my autistic 🚂🦵ass can’t male friends let alone fond aomeone rhat’d willingly be in the same room with her.
Typing this wotihout glasses in bed on mu phone so sorry for any rypos.