Am I being too sensitive or is leadership just not for me?
I stepped into a leadership position 11 months ago. For the most part it has been pretty stressful because I haven’t had a full leadership team and there also isn’t exactly training for my job, it’s a sink or swim kind of role.
There are 3 members of leadership. Myself, my educational leader and my administrator. I oversee 6 teams between 3-5 members in each team.
For the most part my relationship with my team is pretty good. I don’t get it right all the time but I genuinely care about their wellbeing and I’ve had some shocking bosses in the past that I am determined not to become.
I hired our educational leader a few months ago and at first I felt really close to her, I shared personal things with her and treated her as an equal even tho I am essentially her boss.
I resigned from my position 9 weeks ago but agreed that I would wait for a replacement to be found and to train them. Since then, I SWEAR this woman has been after me.
She has been talking to my team members about me, telling them I am unprofessional (which she denies saying), has told them I have my little minions and not to trust me. I don’t really know where this is coming from but she denied saying any of it when questioned by my boss.
Since then I have been trying to be civil with her and just move on. Keeping it professional and respectful.
Today we were short staffed. Enough to cover what we needed but no additional staff to cover meetings. I also had a drs appointment and had a priority job with a strict deadline so I told her unfortunately I didn’t have a cover for the meeting but that in an hour and a half I would have one team member free.
She complained in an report/email to me about how my rostering is not supporting the staffs needs and mental health (I don’t do the roster, she knows this) and how disappointed she was that she asked for cover today and it wasn’t available and questioned why myself and my admin couldn’t cover. She cc’d my boss on the email.
I’ll admit that I could have organised myself better but I needed to get into the dr and they only had 1 appointment available and if I’m not in building, my administrator is required to man the front of house.
I told my boss that I feel like this person is out to get me and my boss thinks it’s in my head.
I’m feeling really unwelcome and despite the fact that I haven’t given her the full scope of her job because she is new and I didn’t want to overwhelm her, so am still doing parts of her job. I feel like this woman hate me and is trying to outline the areas I am lacking.
I have resigned from my position but my replacement doesn’t have a start date and I have stepped back to be their assistant but I’m half tempted to leave leadership all together because I don’t know if I am cut out for it and honestly it is lonely and ugly at the top.