u/Cautious_Wasabi_2533

I don't want to trauma dump but I'm on a gap year after finishing sixth form because I don't know what I want to do in the future and I feel so upset and alone. I've become depressed and lonely and I don't talk to my friends about it because they can't relate because they know what they want to do and they're in uni living the life while I struggle to find a part time job and help my family out. I feel so bad for feeling jealous but I can't help it. I feel like finding out my next step in life is eating me alive. Does anyone have any advice?