I’ve (26F) worked at this hospital for 2 years. I love my work, but hate my job.
My current manager (45F) makes me feel like horse shit, and I dread coming to work. Both her and my director (F) make me feel so small and incompetent. As part of my performance goals, they made me pay out of pocket for a certification because there were budget cuts. No matter how much I explained my financial struggles, they reiterated that failure to comply would result in “disciplinary action or termination”. I ended up paying for it because I had no other choice.
Today, I decided to finally escalate to HR. I feel sick. I couldn’t even send the email because I kept rereading it over and over. My hands are shaking and I’m nervous because this hospital has weird politics that favor leadership. It’s either something actually changes, or I get mysteriously terminated.
I’m actually gonna puke because the job market is so tough right now and it’s not that easy to find work in my field. I don’t want to give them the satisfaction of me crying but I feel so frustrated
Pictured: BR strawberry cheesecake and a chocolate and peanut butter scoop. My dad bought me ice cream when I was having a particularly bad work day (he didn’t even know what happened, I guess he just knew from my face lol)