u/Cautious-Rip-2521

to preface im alright right now but im just soooo peeved. i relapsed after a year of being clean, well sorta, i relapsed here and there but not to the extent that is now, where its upon my arms again and i have to be even more secretive about it. im glad! i lasted that long but it feels like no matter how long i manage to stay clean for, self harm is something that won't ever fully leave my life. it started when i was about nine and ill be nineteen this year, so ten whole years. i can't really reach out to anyone but maybe two people know which is a little weight lifted, but i hate that i did it, cos now its just a constant itch to do it even when im feeling okay. i know itll get better eventually but fuhhh!!!