u/CautionzFlow

I'm trying to find an old YouTube skate video from around 2014–2016.

The video had a very raw, low-budget skate-vlog feel. It wasn’t a polished skate edit — more like a chaotic day/night hanging out with friends who also skateboarded. The camera quality looked like the typical skate cameras from that era (VX1000/handcam type vibe), and the cameraman seemed to switch between members of the group throughout the video.

The group was mostly young guys around 18–25 years old. The vibe was very Jackass/CKY-inspired: yelling, swearing, messing around, making fun of each other, possibly smoking/drinking, etc. I vaguely remember flannels, beanies, and probably skinny jeans.

The biggest detail I remember:
there’s a scene where the group cleans leaves out of a wooden outdoor halfpipe using brooms because the ramp is covered in leaves. It looked autumn/fall-like outside.

Later in the video, there’s a nighttime scene where they go to a restaurant with a Denny’s/iHop-type vibe. Before going inside, they mess around in the parking lot — I vaguely remember things like mooning the camera, messing with a traffic cone, carrying each other around, etc. Inside the restaurant they were still acting chaotic/goofy.

The video felt obscure, not like a major professional skate video or a huge YouTube channel. It seemed more like a local skate crew/friend group video where the hanging out and chaos mattered more than the actual skating.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?

I have been struggling with social media for the last few years and how addicted I am to it. Because of this, I have been contemplating deleting social media for a while, but I can’t seem to do it.

I don’t really doomscroll or anything, and I feel as if it is an extension of myself in a way. I use social media to inspire myself, for example to find inspiration for my next vacation or to become more knowledgeable about different subjects. Even so, I feel as if I can’t live without any type of social media in my daily routine, and I wonder if deleting social media will allow me actually feel a sense of accomplishment or happiness. Is there anyone with some advice on how to cope with this or if deleting social media has any benefits?
I feel like deleting social media would cut me off from a whole lot, like keeping up with the state of the world or losing contact with people.

Lately, or not lately, but for a rather long time I’ve been struggling with the feeling that everything I do feels so tiny and meaningless in the grand scheme of my daily life. Today I was at work (I work a physical job in a hotel), and I was hit with a scent from somewhere which teleported me back to my grandparents old house. An hour after this happened, I was walking down a corridor in the hotel, and I suddenly remember another core memory from my childhood.

These memories fill me up with such a strong feeling. It isn’t positive or negative, but it feels fulfilling. It feels like that is how happiness feels, but I feel as if I haven’t felt that kind of comfort in a really long time. Will I also fondly look back at the job that I have now? Will I look back at the friends I have now or look back at my daily routine and feel as if I took it for granted? Even so, I can’t seem to find an inherently happy feeling from my daily routine, or the friends that I have, or the moments I have with family. It all feels kind of neutral.

People have told me to look for a hobby, but I feel like that doesn’t really do anything for me. I like watching shows, but being stationary for too long makes me feel kind of useless. I love reading books, but I get tired of said book after an hour or two. I like making time to do things with friends and family. But I don’t get that overwhelming feeling of I guess bittersweet nostalgia from anything anymore from anything except the past. Maybe I’m too stuck up on the past, maybe it is unresolved trauma, maybe I think too much and should get out of my head, maybe I should just put the phone down and go take a walk? Is there anyone who feels the way I do?