probably about every lesbian has had a crush on their straight friend, i was proud of my streak of it never happening until... IT HAPPENED 🥹🥹 i've been friends with this girl for about a year and a half, and only really got to know her personally this half year or so. The entire time it's been on/off feelings for her, trying to convince myself not to fall for her or that i don't like her. Atp i just accepted my fate. I know it is probably my lesbian heart only hoping but, she might be bi or some type of gay??
Basically, the entire time i've known her she has been completely submerged into gay culture. Also since we are close friends i asked her if she would ever date a girl, and she said she wished she could because it sounds so much more fun and then continued to go on and on about how much fun and cute it would be and how much better than a man it would be. She also said she would date a masc? (which i am one haha) and at the beginning of our friendship she would say she likes masc girls but fem boys (she now claims she never said that but... she did)
She was raised in a pretty religious un welcoming culture, and only now is she really discovering woke and gay culture that i've kinda guided her through. I was thinking she might be in denial because of how she was raised because everytime i "joke" she is gay she denies it. But also, she knows her sexuality better than i do so.
also maybe im crazy but i think she might subconsciously be flirting with me?
this is gonna sound weird but once in our math class she ran to me and sat on my lap, and she always tugs me around by my necklace or belt. Not that i explicitly enjoy these things, i do feel like this is flirting in a way. especially for a girl who might be in denial or has never flirted before 😭😭
pls lmk what u guys think!!!