I’m in a bit of a mess. Currently sat by the side of the road recovering from a panic attack. Will try to stick to facts.
I’m looking for advice or reassurance any one can offer. I’m sorry I don’t have specific questions to ask, I can’t think clearly right now.
The company I work for (since July24) started a capability process against me in March. There was no informal communication about their concerns, I’ve also never had a yearly review or 121.
They put me on a PIP. I’ve just finished week 8 of 10.
My work place doesn’t have HR in house and I’m not sure if they consulted externally.
I have worked hard to engage with the PIP and improve but I have been told I’ve not met expectations and given a final written warning. The targets feel vague and all the feedback seems to be criticising anything I do. I felt like I couldn’t win so I had been applying for other jobs.
At the start of the capability I raised a concern about an existing potential medical cause for my performance and pressed for medical support with my doctors. I did go to the GP before the capability but my concerns were dismissed by my GP in Jan.
I’ve provided a medical reason that could be effecting my performance (test results received from GP this week) and also handed in my notice this week.
I’ve asked for a basic neutral reference and current employer agreed.
The PIP as far as I’m aware is still in place and I feel like they’re still going to dismiss me.
All I want to do is leave and never think about this workplace again. I don’t understand why they would continue with the PIP?
I’m terrified of what that will mean for my future and that’s why I resigned when it became clear despite my best efforts I wasn’t meeting expectations.
I keep having panic attacks. I’ve stated antidepressants and I’m waiting for counselling. I’ve called the Samaritans a few times because I increasingly feel I can’t do this any more and that I’m a failure and letting my family down.