u/CatNipCritic

Hello my fellow ladies. I am 32 years old female married to 30M and currently no kids.

I have been wasting (?) my time on Zillow and LinkedIn in the past several months, wanting to get a different, better paying job and wanting to move into a better location and bigger house.

But, I am confused why I keep obsessing over new jobs and new house when my current job and home are good enough.

For job, I am fully remote and average salary, with good manager and nice coworkers. The tasks I am doing, I am not too excited about and I feel the tasks are boring sometimes. The industry I am in is not as sexy as SaaS tech industry.

I promised that I will at least work at this company for 2 years because my previous roles were all 1.5 year-ish. And I made a plan of studying for a certification exam this year and after I get the certification, I will start applying for better paying jobs in tech industry. But I see myself on LinkedIn and browsing job listings, applying for jobs that I will not pursue. Instead of studying for the exam, I am wasting my time sending out job applications.

For house, we live in 2 bedroom and 1 bathroom townhouse in a tiny college campus town. We are the minority here and biggest complaints we have is that most activities , restaurants, amenities are mostly for the majority (I mean, of course). So we want to move to an area with more diverse towns where our future kid can hang out with kids from many different cultures, rather than being the only Asian or Black or Hispanic or non-majority kid at school.

However, we have a plan of getting mortgage for forever home in the future like at least 4-5 years later. We plan to make baby this autumn, and until the first born is 4-5 years old and need to go to school. With current housing market, we cannot afford houses $800k -$1M in more diverse towns anyways with our current savings. But I see myself keep browsing Zillow and getting stressed.

Why am I obsessing over new jobs and new home? Would it be perhaps something deeper, like I feel empty inside or feeling jaded with my current situation, so I am trying to escape?

Anyone had similar experiences?

Do we have any metalsmithing or jewelry making classes or workshops nearby? I am trying to make either bracelets or necklace with tiny lava stones I picked up recently, maybe with silver. It can be metalsmithing classes or any workshop similar to 1000 degrees in the downtown where I can use their tools and materials and make my stuff on my own. I am willing to drive out if there is nothing in state college! Thank you!!