Goodbye
Hey, i don't want us to go down a path of resentment with each other because you still matter to me.
Yes i understand that I know the last time we talked wasn't how you wanted it to go and I said things that you didn't expected or wanted to hear. I showed up for you at the best i could to understand you with the given factors and struggles I've been dealing with, i was honest about my feelings but i was never given any transparency to know with how you truly felt during the time we shared before there was a misunderstanding.
It takes two to tango and a real healthy loving relationship is two people choosing each other despite the differences we have and what life throws us with respect. It's not you vs me, it's us vs the problem with acknowledging we both have different perceptions of the problem with a common goal to solve it.
I've acknowledged the hurt and vulnerability you showed me you went through before me and during us and I'm truly sorry for that and I wish you peace and healing. I take full responsibility that i don't have the capacity at times to give you grace and reassurance when you need it at the given moment for that requires you to feel safe which you deserve, you showed me your inner child that shines so bright but I scolded him instead of really telling him that I respect him and want to join him and other times i let you down due to my own trauma with men which i haven't healed from. But there's times you let me down by haven't given me the patience and understanding of my capacity to express myself.
Again I don't fault you and i forgive you, because we're humans and it's the first time we're on this earth. We never talked about this before we got together and how to navigate it and how we like to show up for each other when stuff like this happens. But we gave it a go anyways and as much as it was painful it was a learning experience and a really really fun and beautiful one.
But thank you for showing up today and I understand after this you can't be around in my life anymore. I really hope you will find someone better truly, and would adore your quirks to the fullest, matches your passion for music and being whimsy and free and show up with the tenderness you deserve.
I genuinely hope you can forgive me to forget me so you won't be in pain again for the next person. Take care.