u/Cat-queen360

Hi! I have autism and I have a lot of mental health issues and just recently relapsed on alcohol after almost two years sober. During my relapse I had decided to impromptu make meals for the houseless. In doing this I got honey all over the counter, the floor, and my newish roommates closed laptop (thankfully her keyboard wasn’t exposed but still). She had texted me and my roommate at about 4 AM that morning expressing what had happened. I was so overwhelmed when I woke up and was trying to take one step at a time. Mistakingly, I did not apologize to her. I had felt horrible the morning after and was just trying to stay breathing and alive. I had overheard her talking to my roommate the next morning and she had said we will talk in person about things. (Her talking to my roommate and not me is a common trend) Because of this, I did not reach out to her. I also thought I had apologized, I didn’t, that’s on me. For the next four days she did not contact me or come back to the house, she stayed somewhere else. It wasn’t until I recognized her ignoring me where she shared what had upset her. Upon hearing her feelings I totally understand where she was coming from and have felt deeply apologetic for messing with her things. I do also feel very hurt about the way she went about things, especially during one of the lowest moments of my life. I have struggled with my addiction for years and she knows how bad this can be for me. I pushed back and made sure to express that my safety and well being is just as important as her being upset. Am I the asshole?