So yeah, tl dr; my partner is soo jaw droppingly gorgeous that i get soo much gender envy from them.
The not tl dr. I am MtF, and i am soo hype to finally for my HRT appointment. It is in 2 weeks. I am soo nervous.
Today i had a video call with my AFAB partner (they/it). I decided to girlmode, and i was feeling soo happy. They called me pretty. We usually have a bit of a buddy system for video calls, i do my stuff and they do their stuff. I like it since we can be alone together. Today, they wanted attention, so instead of telling me directly it decided that i would tease me for my attention. They teased me and showed off their body so i would pay full attention to them. I genuinely think that they are jaw drappingly gorgeous and pretty and like I have told them they give me gender envy. They were just too pretty and i just felt incomplete and weird. Dont get me wrong, i loved seeing them. I just felt aware of our differences. I still love them so much, just sometimes i wish i was born a girl.