I’ve reached a point where I just don’t trust my mum with my problems. Whenever I try to be vulnerable or open up, she just uses it as an excuse to scold me about things from the past that I’d really rather not remember. It’s exhausting, so I’ve started bottling everything up. And I feel like if I tell anyone else, I’m just burdening them with my personal baggage.
I do have a school counsellor, but I don’t feel safe with her either. Since she works for the school, I’m constantly worried she’s going to report back to my mum.
Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you cope when your "safe" people don't feel safe anymore? I feel like I have nowhere to go without it blowing up in my face.
TL;DR: Mum scolds me when I open up, and my school counsellor broke my trust by telling her things I said in confidence. Now I’m just keeping everything inside.