u/Cash311

40 year old male, wife is 39, we planned to not have kids but we are 8 weeks pregnant! I’m scared, don’t know how to care for kids, not good with kids, not good with emotions, have no clue and don’t know where to start! I started a book called raising lions and my wife thinks it’s too aggressive, she keeps saying i need to learn how to take care of a baby but don’t know where to start. We don’t have any help as both are family’s are elder and not super local, we live in Southern California, we both work full time as nurses 12 hrs in the ER and are both pretty bad with kids. I feel like I’m more emotional and anxiety ridden and she is more stern and confident. She is from South Asia and I’m born and raised SoCal, I feel like I need to read books and monitor everything while she seems like it’s no big deal. I’m stressed beyond belief but acting cool, where do I start? Any tips or guidance from experienced parents? I’m working my butt off and lots of OT to save up right now and just worrying about how to do the most simple things right now. Can someone rec YouTube videos or books?

I’m actually 41 as of last week, sorry for the lie, but I’ve noticed over the past few years I find myself much more emotional. I watch movies and I somehow connect more the stories, the tragedies, the emotions, and almost find myself on the brink of tears. If I wanted to I could cry, but I hold it in, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s not isolated to movies either, I feel like I listen or read stories now and just relate so much more. I’ve never cried as an adult or even a child, I come from a family that is not emotional at all, we show love in different ways but not by words or touch, so I’ve always found myself cold and emotionless and have always been told that by partners. I’m a giver so my love is gifts and providing anything and everything except words or deep emotion. My health is good, I eat well, exercise and am a pretty consistent person, no issues at work, and my marriage is fine so overall no real change. The only change is I drink a lot less and consume micro edible shrooms from time to time, but only the past year. Am I normal?