TW: I’m emotionally drained from supporting my suicidal friend and I don’t know what to do anymore
Problem/goal:
I feel emotionally drained and overwhelmed kasi parang ako lagi yung sumasalo sa suicidal thoughts ng friend ko. I really want to help her, pero lately feeling ko naaapektuhan na rin mental health ko and hindi ko na alam paano siya tutulungan without exhausting myself.
Context:
My friend recently went through a breakup that affected her really badly. Before, nag drop pa siya ng school because of that relationship, kaya irregular siya now, and feeling ko dala dala niya pa rin hanggang ngayon yung pain and regrets from everything that happened.
Lately, araw araw kami magkausap because she keeps telling me she’s suicidal and that there’s no hope for her anymore. I already suggested therapy and professional help multiple times, pero ayaw niya kasi feeling niya wala na raw mangyayari and nothing can help her anymore. Every conversation feels repetitive na rin kahit anong advice, reassurance, or comfort ibigay ko, she immediately shuts it down and says wala nang pag asa or hindi rin naman magwowork.
What makes this harder for me is that I already lost a cousin to suicide before, and sobrang traumatizing nun for me. Because of that, whenever she talks about hurting herself or giving up, sobrang triggering siya and nagkaka anxiety ako. I care about her and ayoko siyang i abandon while she’s struggling, pero at the same time her constant negativity is starting to affect me mentally too.
I feel guilty for feeling drained because I know she’s suffering, but honestly hindi ko na alam how to support someone who refuses help without ruining my own mental health in the process.