Being no one's first choice
First time posting on this sub.
Not really sure what to do anymore, there's this woman (26f) that I (26m) have been seeing for a few weeks and there's some chemistry between us and we always enjoy the time we spend together.
The issue is is that today is the second time she had cancelled on me last minute because she has a girl friend coming over and she wants to spend some girly time.
I don't mind that she spends time like that and we're not serious yet but it just feels like I'm never someone's first choice. It's always "oh yeah we can a spare slot let's invite him" or "ah we forgot to invite him, he'll be okay".
It applies mainly when it comes to relationships but it also applies to friendships, it always feels like I'm no one's first choice.
Don't know what to do at this point, I feel so worthless even though I know I have things going on for myself (always cheerful, cracking jokes and checking up on my friends) but no one does that for me, it just feels so one sided.
I just want a partner that can prioritise me the same way I'll prioritise them but each day I'm loosing hope on that.
I'm on Hinge and Bumble and even though I would consider my looks to be average (or slightly above average on a good day), I am 6 foot and fit (if that helps at all which a lot of the times I'm not sure) but I barely get any matches, and even if I do, they don't put as much effort as I do (or none at all).
I just want someone who can prioritise me and check on me without me having to beg, I don't ask for much but I can't even get that...
There would probably a lot of men out there that can relate but I just can't talk to anyone I know as I'm afraid they'll judge me and think less of me.
What can I even do at this point, I'm running out of options..