I really really need advice here because this has gone on way too long now.
My ex and I broke up 7 months ago. I am still really sad about it but trying to just move on. The sex with him was pretty spectacular. The beginning of the breakup was hard and I cried A LOT but now I’m sad but doing a lot better and rarely cry thinking about it.
Pretty much since the breakup, I have had this super weird thing start happening to me…
I finally started masturbating again once I wasn’t feeling as sad all the time and now… I kid you not… every time I watch porn and cum, I immediately start sobbing 10-15 seconds later and am overcome by sadness.
It is the strangest thing because I’m not crying at all anymore outside of that. I have a pretty high sex drive and normally masturbate quite frequently but now I’m terrified to masturbate because I know it’ll end in me sobbing and super sad.
I’ve NEVER experienced this before and have no idea what to do. Has this happened to anyone else? Any advice is much appreciated🙏😭